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Lullaby (Be satisfied with small beginnings)

So my last project in college I wrote a paper about the use of music in The Hunger Games trilogy and composed music for the songs. It was a super fun project. I’ve been wanting to make a new project out of it and post it on YouTube. It has been such a pain. But I think I’m done with it and will be laying it out there even if it’s terrible. You have to start somewhere… One day maybe I’ll have the time, patience, and courage to perform the lullaby myself (the uploaded audio is electronic, but it sounds pretty good, much better than I do at the moment…).

I still sing this lullaby to the kids I’ve watched for the past 5 years. I hope one day when they read The Hunger Games they’ll remember me singing it to them and that moment will be even more emotional for them, because I can be heartlessly heartfelt like that… (I know they probably won’t remember me singing them lullabies since they’ve all been really young)

I guess this is a reminder to me that anything worth doing is worth doing poorly at the beginning. Debut novels are almost always hit and miss. Watching some YouTubers’ first videos is embarrassing for everyone. First learning to crochet, I thought slip stitches were single stitches (it took forever to crochet a scarf!), and we’ll not talk about how uneven it was. As long as I continue to learn from mistakes and keep trying harder, I’ll improve. I won’t reach perfection, but I can fail a bit closer to perfect each time.

So, if you’d like to watch my version of the Lullaby go to:

I’m so sorry that some of the photos ended up so blurry. I still think it was a cool idea, but I apparently don’t know how to make it come to life… One day I’ll get there. Be patient with me.

If you are interested in what I wrote about the music in the Hunger Games (the impact it has on the plot of the books and interaction with the characters, why I made the musical choices I did, etc), let me know! Or I might just not care and post it whether you want it or not!

I’m sorry, I’m tired. I’m glad I’m done with this particular project, but I also am not really satisfied with it…

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Well-behaved vs. Rebel

I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t have all the answers. In fact, I have very few but a lot of questions and thoughts. Lately I’ve been wondering what’s so wrong with well-behaved women? I know the quote “Well-behaved women seldom make history” I love it! But at the same time I feel like there might be layers of well-behaved and rebel. A lot of presidents’ wives would fall under the category well-behaved but they’ve done impressive things! Or in literature, how about a lot of the females in the Harry Potter Series. Mrs. Weasley is definitely an amazing wife and mother, and part of that is protecting her children, which we all love her for! Or Hermione does occasional rule breaking, but overall she’s pretty well-behaved (at least to those casually know her). Then there’s Tonks who is absolutely brilliant and rebellious to tradition.

I think maybe the trick about well-behaved and rebellious is looking at what they rebel against or why they follow the rules. Some governments are worth rebellion and others aren’t. Was Dumbledore a perfect headmaster? There’s no such thing! Would you rebel against him? Hermione did in a way. She cared so much for House Elf freedom she rebelled. That’s another trick to successful rebellions and rebellious characters—they have to have something they are fighting for and not just against. The Hunger Games trilogy is a great example of how things can go when the fighting for is a bit vague or not everyone is on bored. It gets a bit complicated…

Is the world so black and white that there is only well-behaved and rebel? Where does Prim Everdeen fit in if so? She follows rules but does it for a rebellion. In a world where standards are so complicated is there such a thing as well-behaved anymore? Will there be a point where rebelling becomes the standard and therefore rebelling is well-behaved? Are there some rebels we love just because they’re rebels even if they have nothing they are rebelling for?

Please let me know your thoughts! I’d love to have a real discussion.

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Not finishing books

I almost always finish the books I start. It might take me months or even years to finish a book (for example, The Hero with a Thousand Faces by Joseph Campbell. I’d put that book down for months at a time) but I do eventually finish them. The last time I didn’t finish a book was probably college… I get as far into the book as I could (usually), but once we moved on to the next book it was silly to try and finish the last one. Even then, I’d like to finish several of those books.

The reason I’m writing about this today is that I’m about to put down a book without knowing when I’ll pick it up next. The book is Red Raising. And before you get all offended let me say that I’m really enjoying the book—well, maybe enjoying isn’t the right word. I think if you “enjoy” dystopian books there’s something a little wrong with you. They can be your favorite genre, but there’s something very unsettling about taking joy from them. Anyway, my problem is that I’ve been trying to listen to the audiobook which is amazing, but I think I’d get a lot more out of it if I had the physical book as well. Also, I feel like it’s just not the right season to read about such a desolate landscape and story.

I’d really love to read another book or series that takes place in a forest or where a forest is a major part of it (I think that was part of the reason I loved The Raven Cycle so much). It’s just nice and summery outside, and I enjoy listening to audiobooks while walking. Do you have any suggestions for a book like that?

Anyway, I know that this was all a bit random, but my point is that you can put down a book for a month or a year or however long and still get back to it. If you know you’d enjoy a book more later, read it later. There are too many good books to read to not thoroughly enjoy the books when you read them. Maybe this winter or next winter I’ll read the Red Rising series. Until then, I’m not going to stress over it.